Sundog, rainbow of the darkest days.
These last five months have been full with the work of keeping up and catching up on long-idled chores and projects around Blue Moon Stead, and with the love of friends and family who have been so good to be in touch with me, to be here with me, to cheer me and help me adjust to this new life. There has been both a sense of emptiness and fullness, with waves of grief and gratitude for Gary.
Turning compost is time-consuming, unless you can get someone else to do it! In my best Tom Sawyer fashion, I convinced my brother, Richard, that it was fun!
Gary and I always knew the key to me managing my deep sense of loss would be healthy busy-ness, and we were certain that Blue Moon Stead would provide. It has. Gary left me with a list of projects and priorities and, of course, others have come on their own.
Richard cleaned all manner of debris from home improvement projects off the deck, making room for pond-side dinners on the warm September evenings during his visit.
I’ve had work done on the cabin to make it more comfortable, especially in winter. I’ve had parts of my forest cleaned up for fire safety and forest health. My brother, Richard, after spending quite a bit of time here in the month or so after Gary died, came back for ten days in September to help with everything from shoveling manure and turning compost to assembling carts, taking nails out of boards, putting up horse fences, and moving all manner of things from the deck and porch into storage.
I have sold Drader and Konall, our handsome Fjord geldings, and have been getting training on how to work with Bess and Duchess, my two Dales Pony mares who will remain with me.
I’ve begun growing Chinese medicinal herbs at an experimental level, and am preparing to start some as true crops, working with Gary’s acupuncturist toward developing a consortium of growers in the Columbia Gorge region.
Meanwhile, I needed a crop that will be harvestable next year (most of the Chinese herbs require 3 or more years before harvest), so am planting a whole lot of garlic this fall. Our friend Steve, who visited us last year, offered to help. Steve farmed in Alaska, so knows the meaning of Extreme Gardening!
Ella checks out Sundog’s potential as a playmate.
Little did he know that I was looking into getting a little Malinois puppy like Ella, and the timing couldn’t have been more, well, perfectly imperfect. Steve arrived on Thursday, less than 48 hours after we welcomed little Sundog (Sunny) into our family.
Well, I welcomed her, at least!
Ella tolerates her little shadow admirably, but doesn’t hesitate to growl, show fearsome teeth, and bark to discourage Sunny from using her tail as a chew toy, or from using Sunny’s own chew toys as chew toys, for that matter. Mira, the cat, has returned to the home with a great deal of caution and trepidation. She is a bit hurt to see someone else occupying her lap – but that’s the only way I can know where Sundog is as I write this!
– Sundog gets into everything — in this case, a small cooler!
We have a soggy week ahead to plant garlic – I’m hoping the lure of a little puppy will bring some friends in to help. It’s been hard getting back to writing while absorbing the reality of life without Gary, though his love and influence remain with me. But winter is looming, the Sundog is here, and a different rhythm will pace our days. I hope that means I will be writing again soon!
– Taking a long walk is the best way to wear the Sundog out!
The End
Alida said:
It makes me happy to hear from you. Especially as you’ve been on my mind as of late during random unexpected moments!
Barbara said:
Thanks, Alida! So good to hear from you, too.
Linda said:
Nothing like a puppy to brighten up everyone’s day. Even Ella will have to admit that! Congratulations on your little Sundog. Love the name and the connotation, “rainbow of the darkest days”. Truly Sunny is yours to bring you hope.
Barbara said:
Thank you, Linda! She is too adorable. It is amazing to see new life like that — already so much personality and intelligence, the little ankle-biting buster!
Steve Hibshman said:
Barbara, Never a dull moment for you. Best of luck to you and the Spots and best of luck in rivaling Gilroy!
Jane Kang said:
Barbara, I’m sorry to hear about your loss but I’m happy Gary is still with you spiritually. I send my well wishes to you all the way from NYC.
Barbara said:
Thank you, Jane. I’m so glad to hear from you! I hope you are enjoying life in the big city!
Richard said:
I think Sunny needs LOTS and LOTS of SQUEEKY TOYS!!!!!
Barbara said:
I should have marked that comment as SPAM!
Denise said:
Hi Barb, Thinking of you over the holidays. Want to send you a Christmas card. Is there a mailing address you can e-mail me? Hope you are doing well- and spending time with family and friends. Hugs, Denise Barton